I repeat myself when I’m under stress. I repeat myself when I’m under stress.

It’s been tough to plan and work around poetry or music this month in Minneapolis.

Every time I write a sentence like that one, I start to compose what I think will be a concise account of why that is – and I find I can’t do that well enough, partly because there so much to say. To try to put down all the things I’m feeling and thinking in this time of daily governmental offenses and stalwart self-less resistance? Impossible – I go the whole gamut, and these instances and reactions don’t wait their turn, queue up to go one at a time: all the emotional and thought-mode flavor combinations rush to be present.

I’m going to assume some of you already have some sense of the constant lying, the retributive violence, the self-congratulatory joy in inflicting pain, and even the sloppy indifference to a lack of competence or good administration.* This operation is like someone took one of our mad and mentally diminished king’s speeches and sought to make them a battle plan: and so the incursion goes on and on, jumping from half-truth to 100, no 200, no 500 percent less truth, never really making a point or achieving an objective, becoming instead an example of how one can, without any checks or accountability, say or do anything (however stupid, cruel, or shameful).

“I must be powerful,” thinks our mad despot and his dukes and vassals – “for I can do something so badly, with so little care, crowing with pride about hurting my own countrymen!”

Those who don’t know this? You’ll need to find out more elsewhere. I urge you to do so. Those that are sure I’m the deluded one? Why are you still reading today? I will be getting back to literary poetry soon if you come here for that.

Yes, I’m tentatively trying to get back into finishing new musical pieces, though events may continue to make that difficult. I do have this for today: another version of the definitely not a topical song “I’m on Fire (and I’ve got mountains of ice to melt)” composed by Parlando alternative voice Dave Moore using some words borrowed from speeches by 19th century American abolitionist Wendell Phillips – but this time instead of Dave’s own voice and piano it’s a solo performance recorded on a cell phone back in 2014, accompanying myself on acoustic guitar. Between these two versions, I gave preference to Dave’s, not just for the justice of having him sing it, but because back when both versions were new, most listeners thought that my performance repeated the chorus too often. Thinking of that now, I’ll adapt William Blake: maybe the only way to know when we’ve said that line about melting mountains of ice enough is to say it too much.

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*What a lousy sentence that is! People being shot, even killed, families separated, reverse Raptured cars with vacated driver’s seats. Doors busted down with battering rams without a warrant. Supreme Court nod-and-a-wink approved detainments where folks are grabbed, thrown down in the snow, handcuffed, taken to a makeshift jail for a day or so, only to be released with no charges or immigration regulations violations. Tear gas, pepper spray, and “less-lethal” weapons used more likely for sport and revenge than necessity – and I still have the officiousness to end my sentence by objecting to these agents poor organization and the incapacity of their leadership to make a detailed, defensible, consistent case for the necessity of their actions.

Mountains of Ice

When you listen to the song you can hear below you might doubt me – but it is not a topical song written about recent events. It was written by Parlando alternative voice Dave Moore in 2014. Dave’s the keyboard player and the better singer in the LYL Band, and that same year I recorded us playing it with him singing and pounding the piano, and me squawking in with some backing vocals and skidding guitar. Dave tells me today he was writing the song while caring for his father in the times surrounding his dad’s final illness, and he was thinking of the work of someone that goes even farther back than 2014: the 19th century American Abolitionist and speaker Wendell Phillips. Dave’s father was a preacher and a man of strong principles, but Phillips would take a backseat to no one on standing and speaking for his convictions.

As to Phillips’ convictions (as I’ll do once more before this post is done) I’ll try to be brief – but in considering the refrain in “I’m On Fire”  it’s important to note that people, even ones who somewhat agreed with Phillips, noted he was a little off the scale in his fervency whenever talking about injustice. And Phillips’ stand on slavery was not the popular, acceptable opinion when he began to express it. Phillips started his Abolitionist calling knowing full well that another prominent Abolitionist speaker had just escaped being lynched by a mob. Dave’s energy with the piano in today’s piece rightfully reflects how Phillips expressed himself.

The Boston Public Garden memorial to Wendell Phillips. Ice or ICE not visible in this picture.

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And so it was that Phillips was once asked, “Why are you so fiery all the time Wendell?” Phillips replied “Yes, I’m on fire – because I have mountains of ice before me to melt!” More than a hundred years later, a man who became a U S Senator from Minnesota, Paul Wellstone, liked to remember that Wendell Phillips quote. And Dave Moore, our singer and songwriter remembers Phillips too – he has a long-running cartoon in a neighborhood paper where he often brings out Wendell Phillips quotes to assay our analysis and actions regarding current injustice.

Phillips’ ice metaphor, that cry against intransigent injustice will make it seem like Dave was freshly writing about Immigration and Customs Enforcement (ICE) in Minneapolis today. Once more I’ll be brief, but I have foreign readers here, and they might not know what’s been keeping me from working on this Project much in this new year. The following section has been written and rewritten a half-a-dozen times in the past week, and I’m largely going to surrender to highlights, because those that know and see what I’ve seen this past week are already saturated with the things I might try to describe, and those that have certain other judgements that benefit, comfort, or blind them, likely require more vision correction than I can prescribe.

Our home state of Minnesota is currently suffering an intentionally vindictive armed incursion by secretive forces sent by our mad and ill-tempered ruler, who says, right out, this is his retribution. Yes, this is also ostensibly about immigration regulation enforcement, but this is largely a pretext, as the rules for immigrants are being changed week to week, and the enforcement seems capricious and sloppy. If this was some laudable reform targeting people they tag with rote-repeated epithets of being murders, rapists, and gangsters, you’d expect constant published detail of accomplishment, with hundreds of chapter and verse rap sheets to show their work – yet to a significant degree, no one knows completely who is being taken out of their homes, cars, schools, or workplaces. The point, or the result, is to make a great many feel they could be next, particularly if they object to this, since that’s being a “violent agitator.” These so-called agitators are often standing on sidewalks and street corners in their own neighborhoods, on their own blocks, even on their own doorsteps – or they are at their own shopping sites, schools, or workplaces, armed with but cell phone cameras and whistles to call others similarly “armed” to protect them (somewhat) from the masked squads. Some step forward to try to get the names of those who are being detained (since the secretive authorities do not reliably release those names) and getting near enough to hear that risks their own detention. Their cameras minimize, but do not eliminate the street beat-downs and such that would otherwise occur. “Less lethal” bullets, chemical sprays and grenades also get used. They call some of these actions “targeted,” but the targets seem out of focus. US citizens with accents or too much skin color get grabbed, and if you squint a First Nations citizen can look like one of those foreigners. Gotta be hard to deport a Lakota – where’s the plane to fly too? Maybe they put them on a plane, draw all the window shades, make zoom-zoom engine noises, and then let them off?

Given the poorly trained, ineptly led, error-prone outside troops, and all their quick with the ordinance reflexes, these encounters with cruelty-is-the-point apprehensions aren’t prayer circles. Many locals observing this in their neighborhoods are angry and disgusted and they are shouting out shames and curses.

If you’ve seen reports this past week you’re horribly aware that one of these neighborhood observers was shot at close range in the face and killed in front of their spouse, or you might have seen another raid during which a woman driving on one of the busiest avenues in Minneapolis comes upon a half dozen ICE vehicles blocking the street. Some of the agents wave her to turn off to a side street, then others decide she must be a protestor and break a couple of her car windows and drag her out the vehicle still caught in her seat belt as she wails “I was just trying to get to my doctor’s appointment.”

Well, I live between those two avenues. When urbanists talk of walkable neighborhoods they’re likely not thinking of walk-up atrocities, but this is where I, and my little family, live. I’ may have written too much or too little of these things, and just as with other attempts to write about this experience this week I’m not sure I did an adequate job of it – but no gentle poetry sung today though I have this old song that sounds right. Click the audio player below and let poet/cartoonist/pianist Dave sing his song. No player? It hasn’t been detained, it’s just that some ways of viewing this blog don’t show the player, and this highlighted link will open a new tab so you can hear it.

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